N3on has issued an apology for the racist remarks made in his old videos and addressed the controversy surrounding his appearance on The Breakfast Club in a new video to fans.
After The Shade Room resurfaced clips of N3on making offensive comments, the streamer took to social media to publicly own up to his past behavior.
“First and foremost, I just want to take accountability for everything that I’ve said or done in the past, to anyone that I’ve talked shit to, to anyone that I’ve said something insane to, to anyone I’ve made a remark to, I’m genuinely sorry, deep inside,” N3on said in the video shared by The Shade Room. “That’s not the person I am, and I want to apologize and take accountability.”
He then explained why he made such shocking comments in his older videos, admitting it was all about chasing popularity.
“I started doing YouTube when I was 12 or 13 years old, and I never really saw anything, I never saw any growth, and then when I was 17 or 18 years old, I started realizing that shock factor had a lot of value,” he said. “When you’d say crazy shit, or when you’d do things that no one else would do, it would bring your views up.”
“All I wanted in life was to be big. All I wanted in life was views. All I wanted in life was clout,” he continued. “I was on a clout high and I just kept seeing my numbers go up off of saying the most insane, stupid, vulgar shit possible, which I completely and entirely regret.”
N3on said the turning point for him came during a family hangout where he realized he behaved differently off-camera than he did on his streams.
“Why the fuck do I not act like this on my stream?” he recalled thinking. “Why don’t I talk like this on my stream? Why do I say certain things for views and clicks? It’s so corny and pathetic.”
He claims that moment pushed him to change his content and explained that’s exactly why he agreed to appear on The Breakfast Club.
“I went on there because I want that chapter of my life gone,” he said. “I knew they would talk about that stuff. I want to accept what I’ve done, talk about it, learn from it, and try to be an example to show kids that yeah, you can make mistakes, you can be an absolute piece of shit human being, but that doesn’t define your whole life.”
N3on’s comments come after his recent Breakfast Club appearance, where he was called out over a remark about Kai Cenat’s mother and for allowing his stream chat to say “wild racist” things about the hosts.
“You can tell them to chill, but at the end of the day, it’s still the internet,” N3on said when pressed about his chat. “Just like when I was at home, I could say whatever I want. There’s no stopping what a live chat says.”
Charlamagne Tha God responded bluntly: “That’s why when you catch one of them shit talking motherfuckers, you got to make an example out of them.”
Later, N3on tried to extend an olive branch to Charlamagne on a stream.
“I just wanna say, man, deep inside genuinely… Charlamagne, I wanna make peace with you,” he said. “You said what you said, it’s okay. As a peace offering, I’m gonna give you a first-class ticket to Turkey, you’re gonna fix your hair, you’re gonna come back, and we’re gonna run it back.”
But Jess Hilarious isn’t ready to move on. She posted a compilation of N3on’s past racist remarks and addressed his interview on Instagram, saying “his little feelings got hurt.”
